Lots of news

So we had a divine, divine holiday away! We stayed at this beautiful place right on the Vaal River, although it was pretty chilly!! On friday night I was treated to oxtail with a couple glasses of red wine – YUM YUM, then on Saturday my gorgeous husband organised a spa day! We had a sauna session, a complete body massage, foot massage and facial with champagne lunch. It was really special. My hubby knows what I like and I felt really spoilt!

BUT before I went into the sauna room I saw a familiar friend was knocking – AF. I was a bit panicked because I obviously didnt have anything with me but I worried for no reason as she only arrived in full force on Saturday night (a bit of a downer for a romantic holiday) but I was kind of glad she finally made her entrance. So of course it was a flurry of sending sms’s to try and get an appointment to see my co-ordinator today (day 2). I kind of wished that Af had come at a slightly better time but as I have learnt there is no real “good” time for her arrival anyways.

SO today was spent at my clinic going through the hundreds of consent forms, scans, bloods, explanations, COST sheet (I cant actually mention the cost because it makes me feel sick, needlass to say DE IVF is about DOUBLE normal IVF).

One thing picked up on scan is that I have a corpus luteum cyst (never had one before) which means that I will have to scan again in 2 weeks to see if its gone, cant ever be easy can it now? But I suspect that a few days on the pill will solve the problem.

So we are getting there… Just hope when Im pregnant we can afford to eat with the cost of this cycle!

Busy busy bee

Hey there, been a very busy bee the last few days.

Not much of an update. AF is nowhere to be seen. I *think* I ovulated last week so Im guessing that I’ll see her soonish. But who really knows. My co-ordinator at VL asked me to go for a prog and e2 to see where we are but to be honset Im just not in the mood. I know AF will rock up one day so im just waiting, why waste the 200 bucks to say, yes she is on her way?

Last week I had a bit of a “what the fuck” moment. Asking myself why on earth Im doing this again (probably why Im not too bothered about AF). Another stressful cycle, meds, a 2ww…

Today is our wedding anniversary. 4 Years! Wow, how time has just flown. Yesterday we decided to celebrate by going away this weekend. I dont know where we are going but the fishing rod is packed 🙂 Its a suprise for me. Again i ask myself could we just up and leave with kids? I guess we probably wouldnt want to. Im looking forward to the weekend, and spending time with my gorgeous husband (and drinking copious amounts of wine!!)

I had to smile when I received this in my inbox this morning:

Does Having Children Make You Happier?

Social scientists have found almost no association with having children and happiness. Some studies have even reported significantly lower levels of life satisfaction amongst parents than people who haven’t had children.

The widespread belief that having children makes you happy is explained by an article in The Psychologist as ‘focusing illusion’. This is basically where one thinks about all the positives when imagining parenthood, imagining the milestones in our children’s lives will give us massive and long-lasting increases in happiness. We tend not to think about the everyday tasks associated with children, such as school problems, cooking and laundry. These tasks are more frequent than the happy events, and are likely to impact negatively on our day-to-day levels of happiness and life satisfaction.

Boy, I wish it was this easy! Then why the hell am I spending a friggen fortune on a DE cycle?

Another thing I have decided to do is do a course on metaphysics. Its something I have alsways wanted to explore and I think the time is now right.

What is Metaphysics?

To answer the question, Metaphysics is a branch of philosophy that explores what lies beneath the everyday, physical world around us. Metaphysics teaches us to look beyond our material world into the spiritual and energetic causes of all things. Metaphysics answers many deep questions, such as:

• What is my life purpose?
• What is consciousness and how does it develop?
• How do my thoughts create my reality?
• How can I transform the negative experiences in my life?
• What is spiritual intelligence and how can I apply it?
• What is soul and where do I go when I die?
• How can I tap into my own intuition and inner knowing?
• What is energy and how can I learn to direct it?

Through the deep study of metaphysics we begin to see our own lives from a new perspective. We notice the patterns, cycles and themes that we play out in everyday life. A framework of understanding and new tools help us to determine the cause of our behaviour and what we have to do differently so that we can experience the abundance we all deserve.